白费

成绩出了。我很不开心。达不到我要的成绩之余，还退步。自从·Y1S1后，成绩就不段地在退步。我很努力，却换来这样的结局。我期待，相信这次会进到dean list；哪知结果出乎我预料之外！
我真的要奔溃了！！我真的很努力去学。我不服，真的不服。为什么会有人在考试时期，轻松看戏，虚度时间，也能拿到好，甚至比我好的成绩？他们因为幸运，能够跟厉害的人同组做assignment,所以成绩被提。那我呢？有谁能助我一臂之力啊？！！神啊，我依靠你可是为什么这样的结果啊？？？
我真的觉得这么勤劳是白费的。我老早准备也抵不过临时准备的人。那努力，早准备又有什么用?!!!
神啊，为什么？告诉我为什么？！！！我凭信心求，相信你会给我。为什么最后是这样啊？？！！ 你要我学习什么功课？？孩子真的不明白。孩子现在很伤心，要哭。你懂孩子是个注重成绩的人。难道你不想我这样吗？我不明白你的旨意。
至少也让我进步吧。我真的从SEM 1开始，就没有再进步了。我到底该怎么做？！！

See Through

I do not dare to look directly to his eyes. What's wrong with me??
I can talk to others by looking at their eyes but not him. I shouldn't be like that.
Mich, breakthrough that !! He has nothing you feel afraid or awkward with.
Should stop this action and feeling of yours.

Relaxation

"There is no place like Home".
This quote is always true. Have been in my hometown for a week. Really, never starve when I'm home.
Plenty of food is always ready for me.. Hahaha.. ( I hope I don't gain too much weight. :P )
Going to enjoy 1 more week before semester 2 commence soon~~~~ Need to go back to "reality" again ><

So far, my holidays in Kuching are good. Helped my friend for her video shooting and as usual, my mom with her cake-baking. Going to have dinner with my old pal and churchmates this coming week :)

Gonna chat till I'm contented. Happy Holiday to those who are still in holidays. Have a nice one :)

HE‘S REAL!!!!

STOP!!!!  Don't leave this post until you finish reading. Thank You :)
I have something good to share and it's my own testimonial.

Recently, I have some problems with friendship and I started to feel neglected, abandoned, alone and other negative feelings. Some of you would know if you're my faithful blog reader.

Today, after Pastor David Wu preached, there's a short ministry serving. My church pastor asked those who are in need can come forward to receive prophecy and prayer and blessings from the ministry team.
Honestly, at first, I was struggling, whether to go front or not. Because I don't feel like going up alone.
But after consideration and Jennifer's encouragement, I went up boldly.

One of the ministry team member which is a lady prayed for me. The prayer is SURREAL!!! The prayer and prophecy she had on me is really from GOD! Because only Him knows what I've endured in the pass few weeks. Her prayer really comforts me and I cried and weep so badly. Through her, Lord Jesus told me that I'm not alone, I'm not abandon,  and I'm not a orphan. He's with me all the time. He saw my heart being hurt, broken into pieces. He kept on comforting me that He's with me all the time. He NEVER abandon me. He LOVES me!!!! How good is our God!!!! He's really a faithful and awesome God. He never leaves me. He always comfort me in critical time. Oh, Jesus, You're just so REAL!!! When I received such words, I just can't stop myself from tearing up. I cried and cried, my tears just won't stop. I wanna pour out all my pain, sorrow, uncomfortable feeling at once.

It's not the 1st time I received such comfort and words from Him. He knows my fragile heart. He knows I'm not that strong as I look. He knows what I've been through. After all the crying, I felt so much better, really.
I know my heart is healed and I know that my desire, my thirst of God will be more!!! He will lift me higher.

Thank you, Lord Jesus. Really Thank You. I love you, I really do :)

不好意思！

啊哈哈哈。。。不好意思，我又要发花痴了。:P
昨天看到一个文章关于男女的东西，又再次提醒我；
我要充实自己，让自己变得更有内涵。外表固然重要，但那是会随着时间的流逝慢慢消失的。（本人太注重外在了。）我要有素质的生命，由里而外散发的美。若男生只因为外表而喜欢上你，那就肤浅啦。
所以，我的未来伴侣也必须要有内涵，注重内在而不是外在。他必须是看中生命的素质。
22岁咯~~~~ 本人仍在等待的当中。。 。（不懂要等待几时）
哈哈哈。。。上帝啊~~~女儿的祈求，你听到了吗？我相信你是听到的。只不过，要我耐心等待。
因为你有你的旨意，或许你觉得孩子还没有准备好，还没有足够的委身。。。
我相信，你给我的，会是最适合孩子的。:)

不要刻意

在意你的人，不管何时，发现你不对劲，就会找你。不在意你的人，就不管那么多。
不需要互相推迟来关心我。这种不愿意的心态，我不要。
不想，就不要做。不要刻意/为难自己。何必呢？

学会爱

最近，发生一些事情，才让我意识到原来我不会爱。我不懂怎么去爱人，一直要人来爱我。
这太自私了。我不该再埋怨什么了。因为，主耶稣已把祂所有的爱给我。
祂无条件的爱与付出，是我最好的安慰。虽然，我懂不能马上就能学会爱，
但我相信靠着神，我能的。
不要一直纠缠于世界的东西了。毕竟，它们是会锈坏的，不是永恒的。